Thursday
Jul 3,2008
I’m all out of sorts still. I burst into tears at random a few times a day. I think I spent all of Tuesday crying. I really don’t think I’ve ever felt so bad. I feel guilty I wasn’t there with her when it happened and that I didn’t get to tell her goodbye. It’s just hard losing someone whose been there through it all even if it is “just a dog” as some might say. She wasn’t. She was family. I’m dealing by cuddling my Edie pup, who is allowing me to do so. Normally, she only wants to cuddle whenever SHE wants to but she knows something is wrong and let’s me pull her into tight hugs, she lays close and gives kisses all the time now. I also foresee some major puppy retail therapy and will be spoiling the hell out of my dogs soon enough.
I don’t feel like writing much because I can’t really write anything more than jumbled mess. This post will be all over the place so whatever. I’m about bullet points today.
- Wall-E was fantastic. Seriously. I highly recommend it. It’s not just for kids either, the theater I went to was packed with adults and less than 10 kids. Go see it NOW. Plus, the cartoon in the beginning had me cracking up!
- Boyfriend and I tried to go to Angels and Kings here in Chicago last night. Evidently, they aren’t on regular hours yet. We will try again this weekend.
- BlogHer plane tickets and hotel reservations are in hand. I picked them up yesterday. I’m so excited. Plus, I got invited to a cheeseburger party by my favorite blogger who commented on that last entry. Major geeking out followed that email notification.
- Boyfriend is taking me out for ice cream soon. Ice cream makes everything better for the time being.
- Must work out and stop stuffing my face because I’m sad. I’ll just get fatter and be more sad because of that.
- My Blackberry Pearl is slowly dying. My trackball has stopped working again. I performed surgery once and fixed it but it crapped out again. I think it’s officially done for.
- I’m counting down the days until the iPhone comes out. 8, in case you were wondering. I’m hoping the unlocks come out soon after for all of us TMobile users.
- Things to write about still: Chicago Blogger Meet Up Extravaganza, Swirlz Cupcakes, Disney World.
Thank you all for the kind words about my baby. While it was hard to read at times, this is exactly one of the reasons why I love the blog world so much. So much love for someone you only know through their words.
I should be back to regularly scheduled blogging and playing catch up soon enough.
40 Responses for "out of sorts"
hugs, hugs and more hugs.
and i loved wall-e. it was such an adorable movie, as was the short in the beginning.
more hugs for good measure.
Ice cream does make everything better. I won’t tell you to cheer up because I know how empty life feels after losing a pup, and cheering up is not really an option right now. But remember that she knew you loved her, and she would want you to have as much ice cream as you can hold.
Hang in there! -many hugs-
Take time to mourn and don’t feel bad about it, even if some people say “it’s just a dog”. Growing up, my dog was my best friend and I wasn’t able to be there when he died either. It was awful. I really feel for you right now.
I want to see Wall-E so badly!! I’m hoping to be able to cross that off my to-do list by next week.
Ice cream totally helps. So does exercise (even if you don’t feel like it). Maybe a little bit of both?
anyone who says a pet is “just a dog” deserves to be kicked in the shins
ahhh i haven’t seen wall-e yet! but everyone and their mother has and have been like, “why haven’t you seen it?!” hehe.
hurray for icecream & boyfriends. whats your favorite?
um, i love my iphone. probably won’t get the 3G. bummer. but i’m excited for you to get it
haha.
// danni @ ohhellofriend
I’m glad Edie is letting you cuddle her voluntarily. She’s a good girl. Ice cream always helps too. Just take some time to heal and feel better. And keep crying if it helps. It’s okay to be sad. BlogHer is two weeks away!
Dogs are special… It’s okay to be sad. And sometimes emotional eating is the best you can manage, so don’t feel bad.
isn’t it great how even the craziest dogs will calm down and console you when they just know something’s wrong?
My heart is broken for you. I lost my Greyhound, Tashi, about 5 years ago and I still miss her and I still love her.
Your baby is in doggie heaven chasing butterflies and eating tons of tummy yummies.
I promise.
Take care of yourself.
Tons of hugs for you! Any dog lover knows that it’s never “just a dog.” Hope your ice cream helps you to feel better!
Dear Jamie,
I <3 you.
Me.
Ice cream has soothed my heart many-a-time. Might I recommend birthday cake remix from Coldstone, or the Chocolate extreme blizzard from Dairy Queen. Sending Hugs your way!!
Hang in there, Jamie and just enjoy the ice cream. It helps if only slightly.Hugs.
dogs have this uncanny ability to sense when something is wrong..case in point, your edie…im glad you have edie to cuddle with through this tough time
You have to take time to heal. It’s not just “some pet” - pets are family! Take good care of you and get lots of puppy kisses.
Folks who use the phrase “just a dog” have never had the pleasure of being owned by one.
Hope you enjoy the weekend…and do take a moment to spoil Edie.
I hope you start to feel better soon, hun. It’s really hard losing a pet, so don’t bother if anyone else suggest that its not.
<3 ya!
i wanna go to angels and kings!!!!!
<3
After reading everyone’s raving reviews about Wall-E, I might have to see it… And bummer about your BBPearl. I love my Curve, but you’ll be super stylin’ with the new iPhone. As soon as I get back to Chicago I’m heading straight to Swirlz!
I’m so sad to hear about your dog! I’m a big time animal lover and I completely understand how they become such integral parts of our lives. Wishing you all the best!
Aw hugs to you!
Thank you again for guest blogging - you’re welcome at Crazy Brit Heaven any time!
Thought I’d send you some blog love and tagged you in a meme. Have fun if you decide to do it!
More hugs, x
I wish I lived closer so that I could give you a huge hug and buy you a cupcake or two from Swirlz.
Chin up, it’ll take some time, but you’ll get through this too.
::huggles::
Our puppies are part of our lives - heck I had a break down when I had to put my hamster down in January. We had him supervised by the vet during the day while I was at work and then I took him home in the evenings for 4 days before he went. He was a $400 hamster, and worth every penny. I get it.
Don’t beat yourself up - and make sure you’re as nice to yourself as possible.
Sorry to hear about your family’s loss =(
Edie is such a precious pup. I’m so glad she’s being so sweet to mommy. It always makes me so sad to hear about the loss of a long loved family pet. Mine’s getting close, as she’s 13, and I know that I’ll fall apart. Huggy, hugs.
I’m very sorry for your loss. I think losing a pet is suffering one of the worst losses because there is that unconditional love and intense bond between someone and their pet that, sometimes, just isn’t as strong between people.
I’ve had to put two pets down and give another one away. It never gets any easier. I hope Edie continues to give you the comfort you need! He’s a sweet pup, and he won’t fill that void from losing your other baby, but it will help. Stay strong, keep busy, and start feeling happy soon.
Aww, I am sorry about your loss. Pets become one of the family, and I know that they are never just pets. Even my hamster is a member of my family, and I miss him when his is gone. 13 years is a long time. Take care.
I’m sorry to hear about your dog. Don’t be ashamed of how you feel right now as it’s not ‘just a dog’ you’ve lost but probably a friend and loyal companion. Ignore people who will try to tell you any different and take the time to give this loss a place.
Remember that someone isn’t really gone until they are out of your heart, whether that’s an animal or a human.
1 - I’m reallly sorry about your loss
I’m a crazy animal person and it’s devastating to have to let a pet go who has been with your family. It’s best for them though. We have 3 cats in our apartment, and the other day our youngest, Alison, ran full tilt in to my shin. She hit so hard that she bruised me, and then she bolted and hid. We have a very small apartment and I couldn’t find her anywhere so I started becoming frantic, I made myself projectile vomit sick, and in the end she turned up and was fine.
But even the thought of them getting old and passing on is devastating.
2 - The iphone comes out here next Friday and while I’d love to have one, the plans are absolute garbage. It kind of bums me out actually.
Awww I’m soo sorry about Princess. I know that losing a dog is one of the most painful things in the world. I hope Edie is doing a good job comforting you.
Also, I can’t wait to read about Swirlz
I feel so late, but I’m so sorry about your puppy (no matter what the age, they’re all puppies to me). Animals are members of the family, and their loss is devastating.
I saw Wall-E too, and it was adorable.
my dog is getting older and older and i don’t even want to think about losing her! i’m really sorry about your family member (because of course she was!)
Yet again, I’m sorry about your dog. I’m glad to see you out and doing things, even if just a bit. It helps, it really does.
My old, old kitty is now 19 and he is going to have to be put down soon. Dreading it. He was a present for my 8th birthday. Keep cuddling your puppers, and I know I’m gonna be smooshing the heck out of my little kitty when the time comes.
xoxoxoxox and ice cream
*hugs* It’s a tough thing, and healing is definitely a process.
I’m glad that you’re getting out and doing things and that Edie is letting you cuddle all the time. Every little bit helps.
Sorry to hear about your dog - I lost two this year
Wall-E was indeed fantastic; I want to see it a million times more. My favorite Pixar movie, for sure.
The trackball on my Curve stopped working once, so I just pushed it really hard and swirled it around until it worked again. Those trackballs are pretty problematic.
I hope you’re feeling better! (I know this post was a week ago… I’m catching up.)
Oh, honey, I’m so sorry. I think you can only understand a loss like this if you’ve owned and loved a dog. People who haven’t really bonded with one don’t understand that there hundreds of times when the presence of a dog saves you. Literally.
I remember when I lost my first dog the only thing that made it easier was taking it one day at a time. And just breathing when it became too much.
My thoughts are with you.
Oh, honey, I am so sorry about your loss. People who haven’t love a dog can’t understand what it’s like to lose them. And how many times a day their presence saves your life.
When I lost my first dog, I had to take it one day at a time. And just close my eyes and breathe when it became too much.
My thoughts are with you.
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