I’m all out of sorts still. I burst into tears at random a few times a day. I think I spent all of Tuesday crying. I really don’t think I’ve ever felt so bad. I feel guilty I wasn’t there with her when it happened and that I didn’t get to tell her goodbye. It’s just hard losing someone whose been there through it all even if it is “just a dog” as some might say. She wasn’t. She was family. I’m dealing by cuddling my Edie pup, who is allowing me to do so. Normally, she only wants to cuddle whenever SHE wants to but she knows something is wrong and let’s me pull her into tight hugs, she lays close and gives kisses all the time now. I also foresee some major puppy retail therapy and will be spoiling the hell out of my dogs soon enough.

I don’t feel like writing much because I can’t really write anything more than jumbled mess. This post will be all over the place so whatever. I’m about bullet points today.

• Wall-E was fantastic. Seriously. I highly recommend it. It’s not just for kids either, the theater I went to was packed with adults and less than 10 kids. Go see it NOW. Plus, the cartoon in the beginning had me cracking up!
• Boyfriend and I tried to go to Angels and Kings here in Chicago last night. Evidently, they aren’t on regular hours yet. We will try again this weekend.
• BlogHer plane tickets and hotel reservations are in hand. I picked them up yesterday. I’m so excited. Plus, I got invited to a cheeseburger party by my favorite blogger who commented on that last entry. Major geeking out followed that email notification.
• Boyfriend is taking me out for ice cream soon. Ice cream makes everything better for the time being.
• Must work out and stop stuffing my face because I’m sad. I’ll just get fatter and be more sad because of that.
• My Blackberry Pearl is slowly dying. My trackball has stopped working again. I performed surgery once and fixed it but it crapped out again. I think it’s officially done for.
• I’m counting down the days until the iPhone comes out. 8, in case you were wondering. I’m hoping the unlocks come out soon after for all of us TMobile users.
• Things to write about still: Chicago Blogger Meet Up Extravaganza, Swirlz Cupcakes, Disney World.

Thank you all for the kind words about my baby. While it was hard to read at times, this is exactly one of the reasons why I love the blog world so much. So much love for someone you only know through their words.

I should be back to regularly scheduled blogging and playing catch up soon enough.

Two weeks from today, I visit the Land of the Mouse. Two straight weeks of work and 3 days off (including weekends) and I get to take a break from Chicago, a break from my family and unfortunately, a break from my baby puppies. I can’t even lie, I’m really looking forward to it. A week of sun, roller coasters and Disney magic with my favorite boy and his family. I’m counting down the days until Tuesday because then he comes home from four days in Las Vegas with the boys. I miss him like crazy!

This weekend was lovely. I seen Sex and the City with Jenn. I thought it was good, I wasn’t to thrilled with Jennifer Hudson’s story line, I thought it was pretty cheesy and irrelevant. Saturday was a gorgeous day in Chicago and we hung out around Millennium Park and ate some ice cream. Strawberry, thank you very much! And yes, I’m aware I look like a chipmunk so shut up.

This week I will be treating myself to a haircut which is ridiculously overdue. Bangs are in. I made an appointment last week and will be sticking to it despite my hair anxiety. I just have to keep reminding myself how even more fabulous my hair will look once it is done.

I need to get some pre-Florida vacation shopping done before I leave too. Shorts? They are the devil. My thighs curse the day you were born. I hate hate hate shorts but I’m not trying to walk around in 100 degree weather wearing jeans. I guess I will have to make it up to myself by buying some Marc Jacobs sunglasses. Thighs can’t hate me if my face is in Marc Jacobs, right?

Since I know everyone was keeping track, I am on Season 6 Part One, Disc 3 of my Sex and the City bible.

Because I love her, you get an Edie picture too. I know she is all over this blog but she’s adorable and I can’t help it!

I’m alive, blog world.

I have not had internet in 3 days. I’m going through withdrawl. My Opera browser on my Blackberry crashes every time I open it so I’m about to throw it out the window since it won’t give me a fix either. I’ll be gone most of the weekend but hopefully by the time I come back Sunday, I should be back up and running. If not, I will end my cable company’s life. I can see it now…”Chicago girl goes on rampage!”

Quick updates:

- boyfriend is in Vegas
- I miss my puppy
- SATC was fabulous
- pomegranate martinis taste like candy
- Jenn is pretty cool even though it always rains whenever we hang out!

Have a good weekend! Any fun plans?

I’m overwhelmed. I’m incredibly busy. I’m on season 4 of Sex and The City. I’m tired. I wish the bank, post office and travel place were open later. Less pictures, more words. I have sick babies at work. I need to lose weight. I want to throw my Blackberry out the window. I can’t wait for my vacation. I wish I knew what the fuck I’m doing. I should shut up and stop talking about losing weight and just do it. I need a new bag. I need to blog more. I want to move out. I’m going to miss William when he goes to Vegas this weekend. I want to nap. I wish their were more hours in the day. I need to find a good salon that does waxing. I want an iPhone. I wish I was done with school. I’m a sucky commenter lately. I need some sexin’. I need to do a contest and ask a friend about a guest blog. I think Eat Pray Love is over rated. I need to pay bills. I’m freezing. I should probably get that checked out. I hate having to deal with repairmen and it’s not even my house. I’m way behind on blogs. This weekend will be fantastic. I should write more. My hair is begging for a hair cut. I’m such a sissy. I need to save money. I need to win the lottery. Bangs or no bangs?

I wish I could shut my mind off for a few days.

I’ve had the longest week ever! I’ve been in bed early every night and I’m pretty exhausted. Today is far from over but I definitely deserve my weekend. My brain is so scattered right now, I don’t think I can even form coherent blog post so this is going to be kind of random.

First off, gas? Fucking sucks. It cost me $40 and that barely got me a little over half a tank. WTF

What’s going on around the bloggy world?

The lovely Lauren at Elle Electric is newly engaged! Read her adorable story and tell her congrats!

Did you happen to catch that edition of cribs when that adorable Canadian shows off his new house?

Happy Bloggiversary Ohmygoshi!

Renee is graduating! Go leave her some love for all the hard work she’s done.

Contests, contests, contests. If you haven’t won a pay it forward contest yet, you’re not looking hard enough! These things are popping up everywhere. Jenn is making you draw stuff in paint to win. Hazel is asking for your favorite meal to cook. Leave Arielle a comment here to enter her contest. Seriously, that is three contests right there, I know there are more but I just can’t think of them off the top of my head. What are you waiting for?!

Okay, that is a tenth of what is happening in the blog world, it’s all I can remember off hand. Give me a break though, it’s been a long week! I’ll be more prepared next time.

Have any weekend plans? I’m planning on finally catching up on my reader, mailing out some stuff, puppy park, a little shopping and a friend’s birthday celebration.

What about you?

I can’t even lie. I’m kind of addicted to Pepsi. I’ve cut down a lot lately, I use to be able to drink 2+ cans a day. I’ve been trying to stop drinking pop (not, soda!) but it’s hard. I get super bad caffeine headaches and I don’t drink coffee or anything else so I’m not getting any caffeine. I’ve been drinking tons and tons more water and only really have one can a day. I don’t do diet, I dont do caffeine free or any of that other nonsense. I know that if I just stopped drinking it, I would be a lot healthier and I would probably lose some of this awful weight I’ve been carrying the past few years.

Oh Pepsi, I both love and hate you. What is a girl to do? I guess I should be glad it’s not like cigarettes or freaking crack, but still.

What do you have a love/hate relationship with?

My interview yesterday went smashingly. I’m pretty awesome at these things, well when it comes to nanny interviews. Kids and babies love me and parents love that they love me. So I’m picking up extra hours with this new family which will put me at around 40-45 hours for a 4 day work week. I’m really excited because I’ve been feeling so strapped for cash lately, with paying off vacations and then gas. I feel like all my money has been coming in and going right back out. Now I should be good for all vacation expenses (flights, tickets to parks, food, clothes and whatever else) and still feel like I have money for gas and other things that I need and might pop up.

I’m spending tonight in. I’m pretty tired so I think it is a good thing. Hopefully, tomorrow the weather will agree and I can take Edie to the puppy park for the first time! Of course, pictures to follow.

Have a great weekend!

I’m going to see McDreamy in Made of Honor tonight with the lovely, Jenn. Getting yummy food and if I can talk her into it (which will be so hard I’M SURE) going to get ice cream!

Saturday I will be meeting Jessica and Kayleigh for the first time tomorrow. Alcohol will be flowing. Should be a fabulous night.

I also need to finish getting together my package for my favorite Canadian and pooch. Ben, promise it’s going out Monday. My three PIF winners, yours also will be going out Monday. GET EXCITED.

Also, that new moisturizer? Big fail. Doesn’t moisturize well and leaves me looking pasty. Not a fan. It will be going back to Sephora. Any other moisturizer recommendations?

As always, puppy pictures this weekend. I know you are dying to see MORE pictures of my pupperoo.

This is where you tell me your weekend plans.

Go.

- I finally seen The Darjeeling Limited. I loved it. You should see it if you haven’t.

- Miley Cyrus is really annoying. Of course, people are going to get all worked up over a photo of her backless, covered with a sheet, a head of touseled hair and pouty lips. She’s 15 years old has millions of fans that are practically babies. I don’t care who shot it, they (Disney, Vanity Fair, her people, parents, etc.) had to have known it wouldn’t be well received  - artsy or not. I couldn’t careless honestly, but I’m just sick of seeing it as *BREAKING NEWS*! If by miracle you haven’t heard about this or seen the picture, Jenn has it up on her blog. What do you think?

- I’m going to Florida in a month and a half! Time to step up the dieting and exercise game. Seriously. I need to look hot for Mickey Mouse. Ew that sounds dirty.

- I slept horribly last night. I woke up and felt like I had just went to sleep. Then I get to work and the kids have colds. Awesome. I love those little germ magnets, but they better not get me sick.

- This weekend I get to see my favorite blogger BFF! We always have an awesome time when we go out. We are kind of ridiculous so look out Chicago.

- Final word on Bright Light, Big Ass? Not thrilled on it and had to kind of push myself through it. Loved Bitter is the New Black though. I definitely recommend the latter. I’m hoping her new book is more like Bitter. Next up is Eat Pray Love. Heard some mixed reviews so I had to check it out myself.

I think that is it. Pretty sure I will be taking a nap when the kids go down this afternoon. I’m exhausted.

Care to share your randomness?

Go for it.

I’m considering this to be a successful weekend so far.

Friday I went to a family party for the family I work for. Met a super amazing celebrityish person, which I will elaborate on another day.

Saturday I ate far too much food, walked it off around Wicker Park. Found people who work at Akira to be quite annoying. Still felt full hours later. Spent the night in and trying to catch up on my reader.

Today, I am finishing up Bright Lights, Big Ass. I’m not loving it as much as Bitter is the New Black, which I devoured in one sitting, but it’s alright. I bought a gigantic bag of m&m’s. Cuddled my pupperoo. I will be making some pasta later. ANTM marathons have been on all weekend. I have at least 2 movies to watch with boyfriend later.

How’s has your weekend been so far?